Well, I got the results from the doc back and I have Diastolic dysfunction. Diastolic dysfunction occurs when the ventricles of the heart become relatively "stiff," and thus it becomes relatively difficult to fill the ventricles with blood in between heart beats. Apparently one of my ventricles is "stiff". The doc said it was like a body builder who is so muscular he can't reach around his back. Basically it is a result of my high blood pressure and he put me on a BP medicine called "Tarka". In researching this it said it was a result of chronic high blood pressure - aka me. It also said it was common in elderly women. Yeah, I am an old women. All I need is a cane and I can be like mom... shudders... The good news is that the doc said the rest of my heart was strong and by regulating my blood pressure it should reverse it. Had I not found out about it I could've had Diastolic Heart Failure and died. Wonderful. I am starting to realize a couple of things. The first one is that I need to not stress out about work and other things. The second on is I need to relax more. So I shall. I remember as a kid I was the king of relaxation. The whole world could come falling around me and I would have rose colored glasses on. Mom and Robbie would argue all the time and I would be playing my harmonica. Melinda would stress about grades and I was like - eh, I am going to a college that only needs a C+ average, why worry. Part of being relaxed is definitely being lazy and ignoring things that could stress you out. Ah, I remember mowing only one strip of the yard and taking a break every 5 minutes. The breaks were relaxing. Hanging out with friends was relaxing. Hot tubs, now they are relaxing. Hmm, maybe I should get a hot tub? Medical bills first. Other things are relaxing as well. I haven't had a massage in a long time. I used to get one before Corporate Red's big shows. Maybe I'll do that again. I refuse to go on another diet. I have been on 3 diets this year alone. That is enough. Playing guitar - now that is relaxing. My medical history reads like an old lady. Eh, screw it. Worrying about my health also causes stress ;-)

Thought of the Day
"These guys are pretty cool - even though they're sixty."
Beavis & Butthead (about Aerosmith)