Today I woke up at 7:15 AM without an alarm. Now I don't know anything about psychology, but I don't think the human mind can just "will itself" awake without any kind of brain chemicals causing the body to awaken. I really think this sleep light stuff is working. The one issue I have is that I awaken, but am still tired, however I cannot fall asleep again. This weekend I had to force myself asleep when I awoke too early. Another plus - my mood seems to be elevated. I guess that is why they clinically have proved it for Seasonal Affective Disorder - winter blues. I did read that one side effect is mania - a happy obsessive state. I should watch myself for that. Anyways, I like this technique, but I still hate the mornings, even if I do wake up earlier than usual. Here's something funny that happened this weekend. Holly and I were invited to the wedding of one of her coworkers. It takes place in this YMCA House in Fort Worth. Let me just say this about the bride. She was very nice. She had good personalities, foot long ones, that stuck straight out like two puppies in a doggie sweater. She knew it, everyone knew it. Every single person there had eyes that were just amazed at how gravity was thwarted. That is the first funny thing. Then all is silent as the newly ordained preacher starts his first wedding. "Dearly Beloved, we are gathered here today..." then I hear behind me, reverberating, slowly "haaaaaaaaaaacccckkk" "Tooooooieeee". Some guy was hacking a loogi during the wedding in the bathroom near the door. I think only the people in the back row heard that but it was enough to set me off. My face turned red and I was holding the laughter inside. I started crying a little from laughter - but I did not laugh. Every 10 seconds or so it would pop in my mind and I had to hold it in. Holly was nudging me. I think people thought I was crying for other reasons. The minister - whose first wedding it was, read each line perfectly, but with pauses where there shouldn't be "This ring is small and it is also large." The wedding was quick and then we went upstairs to the second floor reception hall. Apparently at 9:45 on a Friday night someone decided to take a shower in the girls bathroom and didn't turn it off. Water started filling the women's restroom. Then as the bride starts walking downstairs at the end the water started going down the chandelier downstairs as the leak spread. It was funny as all the guys started laughing. I wonder who would take an actual shower at a wedding? I suppose I shouldn't laugh at anything though as my wedding is around the corner. I can picture another loogi at my wedding. "haaaaaaaaaack" "Toooooooie"

Thought
"Look up, come on, look up."