Ah, what am I thinking about. Tonight we should be playing softball at 8pm provided it doesn't rain. That should be fun, but my health is still a factor. Why I get lower back pain is easy to see. Exercise is good for me though. I think I am nearing the end of my vacation from stress. It's been fun. Eating what I want and watching lots of movies. I have analyzed and talked about the whole diet and exercise thing to death. You know I realize it is a problem within the brain. Studies have shown in obese people that there is a part of the brain that regulates self control and in those who are obese that part of the brain does not get triggered when things like sweets enter the mind.

I used to think I could get around this by hypnosis. That is one side of the equation. But I think as I got into hypnosis I realized I was messing with the wrong part of the brain. The conscious will not let the subconcious do anything that it doesn't want to do. The final solution is to do some kind of cognitive behavioural therapy mixed with deep brain stimulation. Kind of like the Ludvigo technique in Clockwork Orange. Of course we all know how that ends so I am not sure if that is wise. I wonder what my sister the neurologist would do for that. It appears to me that if you had a lot of money the treatments used to destroy cancer cells could be used destroy fat cells and the brain treatments use to stop parkinsons patients from tremors would be used to stimulate the self control regions of the brain to retrain it. It makes sense, but I am no doctor.

So I go on analyzing it and come up with a million excuses not to change. Like, when we have a kid our lifestyles will get reset again and there will be a period of adjustment. So whatever habits I start now will likely be broken. Or the old, I've been there done that and it doesn't work. Then there is the I enjoy good tasting food and hate healthy food excuse. Laziness is a good excuse. I have enjoyed not spending much energy on things I hate. I figure if my body was a fully optimized machine I wouldn't need to eat for quite a while while I expend this vast reseviour of stored energy. Maybe fasting is the ultimate in laziness. Maybe that's the ticket. Ok, enough. Blah Blah Blah. No one wants to hear about dieting and exercise. They want to hear about kittens. meow.