Thursday, July 16, 2009
A Crock of Tofu
So yesterday was CBT day. It is rather interesting as this lady calls it likes she sees it. You know she'll ask how I am doing on my diet and I'll say something like, well I did have double cheeseburger at sonic the other day. Then she'll look at me and go, well that's a crock. You've got pre-diabetes and you must not care. Then I'll say, well I had to make it quick so that is what is natural. Then she'll say, that's sounds like an alcoholic wanting a beer. Yeah, this therapy is treating my eating like an addiction. I can see it. I really only wanted to lose weight half way, avoiding my food choices. So then she goes into my childhood and how eating is comfort for me and how I control what I eat by being a picky eater. I can see that too.
It's starting to get psychotherapy like there. You know, going to the childhood, finding why I comfort eat and all that. Even going as far as my relationships with others like my family and my wife. Like how food is my family and friends recreation. When we do something on the weekends it is centered on eating out at Dallas's many fine eating establishments. Exercise is last on the list of priorites. Or was. Now I am pushing that up to a high priority. Apparently exercise is the number one prevention for diabetes, with losing 5%-7% of your fat decreasing your chances by 60%. I've lost 6 pounds so far. I am on a roll.
So I am on this kick now. Got to get healthy and be serious about it. But she also drew a graph on the board and said flexibility is the goal, not total control, because for an addict you end up bouncing back and forth between total control and being out of control. She always gives me homework. This time it is to drink V8 for an afternoon snack so I am not ravenous at dinner. Also to spend 20 minutes with the wife at night with no media and to get some prayer and quiet time when I wake up. I think it is a working and this CBT is getting me straightened out. Sometimes you need to hear the truth from a professional. I no longer can eat unhealthily. Time for tofu... Just kidding. No way.
It's starting to get psychotherapy like there. You know, going to the childhood, finding why I comfort eat and all that. Even going as far as my relationships with others like my family and my wife. Like how food is my family and friends recreation. When we do something on the weekends it is centered on eating out at Dallas's many fine eating establishments. Exercise is last on the list of priorites. Or was. Now I am pushing that up to a high priority. Apparently exercise is the number one prevention for diabetes, with losing 5%-7% of your fat decreasing your chances by 60%. I've lost 6 pounds so far. I am on a roll.
So I am on this kick now. Got to get healthy and be serious about it. But she also drew a graph on the board and said flexibility is the goal, not total control, because for an addict you end up bouncing back and forth between total control and being out of control. She always gives me homework. This time it is to drink V8 for an afternoon snack so I am not ravenous at dinner. Also to spend 20 minutes with the wife at night with no media and to get some prayer and quiet time when I wake up. I think it is a working and this CBT is getting me straightened out. Sometimes you need to hear the truth from a professional. I no longer can eat unhealthily. Time for tofu... Just kidding. No way.
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