So I went for a followup on Monday morning at 8 at the doctors and he said the xrays showed I have a heel spur on my left foot. I am glad that I have an appointment with a podiatrist with the hope that he can cure this pain. Next to a nurse and a dentist that is probably the worst job to have. I really can't stand feet. I suppose because it is the farthest away from the head and receives less attention than anything. Also I am very ticklish in that department. Last time I got a massage the lady went for my feet and I giggled and she couldn't do them. I wonder if that is what is going to happen today. This morning as I put on a sock with a hole in it, I thought, well too late to change now.

As the baby is approaching an issue has come up at work about time. I am constantly late by 5-15 minutes and its not my fault and we all wonder what having a baby is going to do with my sleep. Why is it not my fault? Well, when you have severe obstructive sleep apnea, a noisy CPAP machine and bad hearing you just can't hear alarms. As I was thinking about it and the fact that I have been like this all my life I had to come a weird conclusion. Sleep Apnea is a disibility. People have won ADA cases involving sleep apnea before and as I looked it up on the net I found that it is even easier to prove because the ADA laws were changed as of January 1st,2009 to include conditions which have treatments. People whose CPAP machines fail to help have even gotten Social Security Disability. It is interesting.. because according to the ADA I can request reasonable accomodations, like maybe 15 minutes leeway. However, I don't think I will because a firm rule in any business is don't rock the boat and I am not a boat rocker.

Really it is just an excuse for getting in late. It may be a good excuse with some legal ramifications, but I should try to stop doing it for the sake of everything. But on the other side I have tried so many things before that I know I will be still coming late and I have to admit it. So I go back and forth with this and proceeded to just tell them,"Have mercy on me. It is hard because of sleep apnea." and that is all. I often think though that I am way too paranoid and insecure about any job. I have been around jobs for 10 years that end just like that with no moments notice and no regard to skill or performance. So I am always insecure and am always preparing myself for anything. I think though, I should just relax and quit worrying about everything. That's good advice for us all.